My best friend my boyfriendI built up my walls, to keep people outThen you came along, just breaking them downWith your childish jokes, and genuine charmYou weaseled your way, into my heartYou were my best friend, my solid piece of groundYou were always there, picking me up when I fell downI no longer felt alone, I was no longer scaredBecause I knew, that you would always be thereAs the seasons rolled by, I could feel things changeWe were the same people, but we were feeling different thingsOur hearts had grown fonder, the night alone sweeterSadly to say, we were falling for each other I never knew what it felt like to feel, the way you made me feelYou had taken my broken heart, and help it healYou had broken down my walls, chased away all of my fearsI never again felt alone, because I knew that you caredYou were my partner in crime, my soul's perfect mateFor you to be my down fall, seemed to be my fateFor you where perfect, perfect to me in every single wayAnd the moment you became
RaphaelYou casted me out,From the shelter of your embrace.Out into a world so cold,So full of greed and hate.Leaving me, to wander the streets,Alone and afraid.With no home to return to,I was left out in the rain.Yet in that world, of darkness and decay,A single soul, shined pure and bright.And that seraph took me into his arms,That cold April night.That sacred creature, healed the wounds,That you and the world caused.Nursing back to health, my trust,Lessening my scars.Over time, that glow you diminished,Burned bright once again.Giving me the fuel,To fight love and live.I grew from the girl I once was,To the woman I now am.Within the loving arms,Of my Angelic Guardian.
I hope you find herI walk out of the shadowOf the girl you deserveAnd let you go outTo find herI set you freeAnd if you come back to my armsI know that you're meant for meBut I hope you find herAnd love her for everything that she offersHave the happy endingThat you deserve togetherI hope that you are happyAnd hold her tightAnd come home to herEvery nightNow I know that it's going to be hardJust moving onBut don't worry pretty soonAll of the pain you feel will be goneYou will have a womanThat brings joy into your lifeAs you best friend, your lover,And your wifeSo don't throw in the towel just yetBecause your life is not overYou still got things to doNew feelings to discoverI send to you my best wishesAnd my dearest prayersThat you go outAnd find her
Just Friends...With BenefitsDon't worry
No, I promise I am okay.I just wish,That some things could have gone a little differently
That you could have actually loved me,Or at least pretended to.So in a way I wouldn't hurt as bad,For being used.But what do I expect,From someone, like you.Who just wants a girl,That they can screw.But don't worry,I promise, that I will be okay.That in time, the sting of all of this.Will fade away
By then the tears, that I had cried,When you where not around.Will be all dried up,And not a drop of agony, will be found.It will all be gone
And I will go for another round,Of watching my heart,Being stomped into the ground.After you have gone,And I once again pick it up
I will swear what we had just did,Was nothing more than an action lust
But don't worry,I promise that I will be okay.Because by the time you read this,My feeling for you, will be fading away.And it won't hurt me,The next time that I hear your call.For you will
Things I'll never sayWhen it's just you and meI get so tongue tiedI just can't doWhat I think is rightYou make me so nervousThat I can't even speakI feel a dark blushBegin to spread across my cheeksI can't tell youHow I have desired to be yoursFor all of these yearsHow I love itWhen you dry my tearsI can't tell youWhen you hug meI feel safeNo these wordsI will never sayI will never admitThat I dreamOf that one kissThat when you got a girlThat I was pissedNo I will never tell youHow I love being in your armsThat I love your scentHow you grantMy every wishI'd like to declareThat I would do anything for youThat you make me feel aliveThat I could not surviveIf you were not in my lifeBut I can'tAll I can do is sit hereAnd stare into your eyesLaugh and be gladThat I am at leastA small part of your life
Through the eyes of a childI lay under the clouds of my lavender skyWatching them take shape, change, and flyMolding and remolding themselves, into whatever form they pleaseAs they float peacefully in the springtime breezeThey just hover around one another, playing games with the sunJust being themselves and having funThe orange grass tickles my face as the colored winds rolls bySending a flurry of silver petals dancing into the skyAnd I watch this serene moment and smile with gleeBecause the world through the eyes of a child is a sight to see
His last breathShe, was his one and only,The girl, that had set him free.Yet she died so suddenly,He didn't have time to grieve.And so he stood, above her grave,With tears falling down.As he fell onto,The earth's, sodden ground.He mourned for her,Unknowingly, his heart couldn't take the stress,And he died right there,With her name, on his last breath.
Pink roseIt was just a rosePink not redSitting thereOn my deskIt seemed like a mistakeFor that flower to be thereI was a no bodyFor me no one caredYet someone had left meA little presentLooking aroundI was a little hesitantI smiled when I picked it upIt was the exact opposite of meIt was so prettySo pinkThat day all I did was smileFor I knew someone caredAnd when I needed some oneThey where thereThough I never found out whoI just want them to know they made my dayWith a little pink roseIn my world of gray
I stayedCall me sometimeYou said walking awayI watched you goAs I stayedYou left to a different placeA location far awayOnce again I watched you goAs I stayedMonths passedYou moved from girl to girlPlace to placeAnd I watched you goAs I stayedEvery morning I'd callAnd get your answering machineAs last night you leftAnd I stayedFor a while I did just thatWatched you leave day after dayAs I waited at my houseAnd stayedFall rolled into winterAnd winter to springAnd like the leaves you leftAnd I stayedBut no not on this dayI woke up and didn't pick up the phoneI walked out the doorOf my homeLoving you like a foolMy debt to you I had paidAs of the morning you leftAnd I walked away.
Love BoundSplit open my chest and you'll find my heart is bigger than the restFeelingsEmotionsI'm not afraid to expressWhen it comes to this heart there isn't much to guessI save you the bestI save none for the restThere's no doubt you're the only girl I want to be aroundSome fool might tell me there's a million other girls in this worldBut I promise you you're the only one I never want to let downYou see... Me and you... We're love boundOnce we get there we'll never turn around
Dancing with DeathI dancedin the middle ofthe highwaytoday.I know, I know!It was dangerous-like playing with deathand his many friends.I apologize,but this...it's onlythe beginning.
LoveYou are so amazingly beautifulEverything about you isFrom your eyes, face, smile, hair and everything elseBut imagine all that beauty destroyedAll your flawless perfection destroyed by meA sick thought to have isn't it?Just imagine your face stained with wounds and blood instead of useless make-upIt would arouse me to see you that wayTo watch you suffer at my handTo listen to your muffled cries and screamsMy desire wasn't always to cause you harmI wanted to make you happy and show you i loved youI always fantasized about holding hands with youAs we gazed into other's eyes while we walked side by sideBut you lost feelings for meSo those fantasies were replaced with the desire to watch you sufferBut alas these would always only be thoughts and fantasies, never actionBut in the meanwhile I wish you nothing but pure miseryI loved youAnd i still do, but i loath you more
darling, you're beautiful. "are you sad?"why would such a pretty girl like you be sad? every time you smile, small sand dunes fill out the corners of your lips, bringing a ray of sun shine in your eyes, even on your cloudiest days. you look at people like you're on the inside, looking out. you see right through people and you try to help at all costs. you've saved so many people; the angels are counting their blessings that you join their ranks one of these days. you shouldn't be sad. you can't be happy if all you do is focus on being sad all the time. so, take a deep breath. you hear that? that rustling of air wooshing through your lungs, into your heart? that means you're alive, that there is a purpose somewhere out in that huge world you're so afraid of. take a risk. cross that unreachable line. "why, there's so many people waiting to meet you, sweetheart."
Atheist's PrayerMom, you've always protected me until now.Up to this day you've been the pedestal for the statue that I build each day with curious hands. But some foundations fall through before they can foster something beautiful. I suppose your heart articulates better than your mind, and that's why God can make more sense of you than I can. But, dear mother, who could blame you? Of course I understand – how could your young, unknowing, obedient daughter ever tear away from the truths you sputter with closed eyes? Your daughter whom you raised in the Catholic church, in a Catholic school? What went wrong? You ask these questions any day I don’t fold my hands in prayer. But it isn't your fault that I don't Believe.Dad, I thought I could always trust you.Your love for me is overridden by the scripture of your strict faith. But it's not your fault that I'm opinionated, especially after all those days we spent sharing our anger against political bigots, our discussions of abortion
PainTo some, pain is nothing more than a hindrance,Something that makes their lives uncomfortable.To others it is something they try to avoid at all costs.But to me, it is something different.Pain reminds me that I'm still here, and I'm still feeling.
Silly me..I told myselfI wouldn't cryI wouldn't careBe hurtRun awayWhy am I lying to myself?It's getting me nowhereIf the true sets us all freeThen why does it lead to greater dispute?I keep telling myself lies to try to make my life easierWhat a silly thing for me to do...There is no easy way in lifeIf things happen.. Then I guess there's nothing I can doEven if those things end up breaking my heart
Deadly KissShe fell in love with his vicious lips.Got trapped into his deadly kiss.She loved to play with dangerous things,But didn't know how much pain it would bring.His smile caught her playful eyes,She didn't know that smile held so many lies.He was so perfect, in so many ways.They're love lasted for only a few short days.Now she lays,Cold.Dead.In that casket bed.She never listened to the warnings, or what we said.You could see those bite marks on her neck by her veins,I can't imagine all the emotional pain.I let her slip right through my fingers,And now her presence always lingers.She was playful, sweet, and loving, but now that's all in the past.She went away and died so fast..His love was strong but his temptation worse.Then again he had to live with that horrible curse.He couldn't help it, and I could see the pain in his face,And now that sweet girls in a better place..
NightdanceWe danced like monsters:lurking shadows atop gravestones,long-limbed, and hungry.We were hips and stitched lips.Clinging widows to a dying mate.You held my hand, whispering,"Scream, BabyS c r e a mlets wake the dead."And in the end,we collapsedlike fallen soldiers.
Make My MusicYouYanked roughlyAt this thing in my chestI call a HeartYouDamageBut all the whileYour soft touchHelped me make musicYouKnow just how toPluck each veinLike a violinAnd help the chambersOf my heart keep rhythmLike a percussion instrumentThere is beauty in theWay youHurt meIn the way youKeep me captiveIn the way you slowly break mePush me downUntil I am scattered points of lightTo be swept into The Night Sky
I've had every reason to turn my backI've had every reason to turn my backIt seems life has been heart break after heart breakBeen down so low I never thought I'd be back up againI've had every reason to turn my backPeople always trying to break meThis world always trying to shakeI've had every reason to turn my backI dare to not shed another tearEvery troubled day is just another lesson learnedI've had every reason to turn my backBut I know someday I'll find the one to make it worth itThere will be a day when the pains I feel will endI've had every reason to turn my backTurn my back on this thing called loveAlways dreaming with a shattered heartI've had every reason to turn my back to turn my back on loveBut then I found youAnd suddenly I have hope in this thing called love again
All That's LeftWhen we met, I saw the hurt in your eyes.Before you, it was a hurt that I had only ever seen in a mirror.So we went somewhere secret and we kissed in the dark,because I knew.I knew you wouldn't try to stop me from jumping,and I knew you wouldn't catch me when I did.No.You would hold my hand as we fell together,And feel the unadulterated bliss of free fall.Not thinking about where we were jumping from,Not thinking about the pain of landing.But every time we hit the ground,It hurt more than it did the time before.And when our eyes alignedIt was like holding two mirrors togetherInfinitely reflecting our pain onto each other.I had to leave.And now all I have left of you are some dead flowers,Cigarette burns,And these scars where we hit the ground.
Cerberusthe Gods abandoned youthe day you tore into poetic flesh.slithering serpent, cold blooded-blue blood society reject.you left awkward love bitesalong the edges of these ribs.marked for today,yesterday is mocking you-6 trillion miles away.i spend my forevers countingyour heartbeats with eachintake of breath assomewhere, far offHades has you by the collar,a hungry dogstanding alone in a bone-yard.strange, how even stillwith all your self builtp h i l o s o p h i e syou became one with the earth,devouring it whole with chunksstill stuck in your teeth.
TantrumsShe screamed.And screamed....and screamed,until their ears bled,and you could see each head aching,feel each heart breaking,just from watching.She screamed.And sobbed.And screamed,until it seemed she would never stop.Their skulls split,their eardrums popped.And finally,she stopped.
I should sleepI should sleepI know it against the mattressThe ceiling is lacking in conversationEven the cracks are slowly driftingTheir yawning leaves black chasms in the wallI should sleepThe window keeps reflecting the silenceAnd the closets been staring for hoursI'd tell it to stop, but it never learned to speakThe sheets are getting too tightI know they don't like my body typeThe bookshelves are sinking into the carpetFalling softly under the weight of nightLeaving heavy sighs that crease the airThat night, I announce to the ceiling"Sleep has no time for me. I am exempt from it's loss."But by then the ceiling was driftingThe cracks were lacking in conversationThe light gathered up its infinite raysAnd slept.
Not allowedYou're always in the spotlight.You're supposed to be intelligent.So why don't you get it?Are you stupid or something?You're not allowed to make mistakes.You're not allowed to break.You're not allowed to cry.YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE!Because you must be perfect.
FifteenThe blushing crowsLand on my clothes.They tease my earsWith regrets and fears.So I supposeThis is how my life goes.Purples, blues, greens, yellows
It's something that I never chose.My eyes squeeze shut.Another cut.I mend and stitchThe holes and splitsThe ones I etchedAnd the ones you stretched.Six hundred pounds of fleshResting upon my chest.It's harder to catch my breath.I hope this is not my death.The worms withdrawWhile the vultures clawAnd begin to gnawAt my limbs of strawMy skin bursts openTo release words unspoken.Down the streetTires screamHeadlights creep.A young teenWants to sleep.Eyes squeezed shut.
RoseBeauty of a rose,Alas your petals deaden,Will thou still be loved?
Her Final PrayerNow I lay me down to rest,With layers of blood upon my wrist.I hope I die before I wake,Because I don't know how much more I can take.